2011 / 12 / 21 ( wed )

hi , i'm here again :)

Somebody said : " time can dilute everything "

I think this is not true because i miss it right now

I had tried to persuade myself that 

i can step on the stage which i want one day

Four years ago , it began to be my dreams 

Today , It's still my dream 

At the time i decide to stop it

i feel that this dream will never achieve anymore

why i did'nt have a nice body shape like others?

or it's only a excuse for me

 when looking others standing on the stage

- my dream's stage - 

what can i do for that?

is this punishment for me?

a pair of shoes -- ballet pointe shoes 

which i only can look at it  , touch it , wear it 

but cannot use it on the stage 

[o^@^o] xinhui [o^@^o]

2011 / 10 / 12 (三)

hmmm... 

最后更新 -- 2011/08/12 

那就是两个月前的今天 =)

又是emo的一天

虽然说是两个月后的今天

但我的感觉还是那样

自从上了高一

有一个无畏的问题一直围绕着我

我讨厌校园生活!!!

第一节上课铃响起

脑海里就开始倒数期待着放学铃

从九月开始我一再地缺席 

(包括正课、选修课、spm补习、学会)

客套的原因--身体不适

主因--我讨厌去学校

" 朋友 " 的真正意义是什么?

" 友情 "-- 我一向都处理得不是很好

应该这样说

我陈欣惠是一个非常多心的人

常常都会钻牛角尖、担心这个担心那个、自寻烦恼

是我的这些缺点让你喘不过气来吧? 

但是每次发生这种问题的时候
不管是谁

彼此都是我先踏出第一步

那是因为我珍惜、不想让这段友情有裂痕

但是你却给我我不想得到的反应

-share- You are the person whom didn't reply me, ain't me :) so not my fault.



"朋友" ??

又是另一个噩梦的开始 

现在期待的不只是每个星期六的1:05pm

而是每天最后一节的最后一分钟 =)

i hate this 2 months to the max max max max max MAX !!

[o^@^o] xinhui [o^@^o]

2011 / 08 / 12 ( fri )

second semester exam is going on !!!

below shown S!AC's timetable =)

11 / 08 @ book keeping , B.I

12 / 08 @ geography , B.M

13 / 08 @ Maths

15 / 08 @ mandarin , bussiness

16 / 08 @ history 

 nescafe n fresh orange juice

become my buddies at the same time... tehee =)

revision ... revision ... revision for ntg -.-'

wats the reason?

because there hav a LAPTOP on my table ... 

lol ... keep clicking on the keyboard n 

didn pay attendtion on my book also

i m studing also .. but im studying FACEBOOK right now 

well ... going to take MATH exam tommorow ...

so? wat should we do now?
need to sleep early tonight !! =D
let our brain get a rest n re-organize ..
good night ... hav a nice dream tonight ...

bye =)

[o^@^o] xinhui [o^@^o]

2011 / 07 / 09 ( sat )

有时候真的不懂

要怎样解决眼前的问题

一句话

我感觉我们的距离

真的越来越远了

老实说

你跟她们在一起那么高兴

每天有说有笑的

我不可能叫你过来

也不可能走过去找你

因为这会让我觉得

我是一个脸皮多么厚的人

简直就是 kalefe 一个

你已经做了你能够做的事

想尽办法不忽略还有我这个朋友

只是我心里的魔鬼在作怪

一直阻止着我接受你的每一个好意
不是你的错 =)

凯琪转校后  

刚开始不懂还有谁能够陪我

度过剩下的高中生涯

最后想想

幸好还有你

我是不是很自私??

慢慢接下来的七个月

我们的距离就随着时间变得更远

你也变得越来越忙

想跟你好好说句话都难

直到昨天

我们俩的谈话内容

就只剩下 " 拜拜 " 这些?

今天的我连" 拜拜 " 都没勇气走讲

真不想走过去扫你们的兴

你忙你的吧

我也该忙我的了

相信这个恶梦会有醒的那一天
让它自己醒吧 =)

[o^@^o] xinhui [o^@^o]

2011 / 07 / 02 ( sat )

suckss !! i'm very emotional today !!

feeling sad n lost direction in my life =(

i lose my sister 

i lose my studies

i lose my dance 

i lose my life

i lose everything

i'm a loser !!!

others are 16 years old .. i'm also

why do ppl have such a 

wonderful 16-years-old life

what about me?

i love to dance also

in exchange for what?

xinhui = passenger 

xinhui = superfluous man

xinhui = bull shit

you are my elder sister

what did you done for me?

nothing !!

always not biside me when i need you

is this the generation gap?

i don't know how to 

communicate with you now totally

disappointed

well , i'm glad that i still have a dear mom beside me

i love u ... mummy <3

[o^@^o] xinhui [o^@^o]

2011 / 06 / 25 ( 六 )

Report Card Day

today = Hin Hua High School report card day

i followed my dear mum and dad 

having our breakfast -- bah kut teh in this lovely morning

毛山稿巴生肉骨茶    did u heard tat be4??    

restaurant bah kut teh mo sang kor ... this is their branch =)

delicious bah kut teh 

actually i plan go to school after having this " fats " breakfast

but i keep following my dad deliver some goods

so tat my schedule have been adjusted 

thus , my 1st plan hav postpone until afternoon

1 o'clock in the noon

i go to take my report card with my dear mum

when we walk into the classroom

there is no student inside 

teacher sitting alone in the room

it looks spiritless n surprising

well , teacher take out a report card 

and ask me 佳盈 izzit ??

  " 周佳盈 " shows on the report card -.-''

she teach us more than half year edi

but stil dunno wat's my name

wat a good teacher 

" bahasa malaysia - 58 " and

" bahasa english - 57 " shows on my card

i feel badly for this two major subject 

well , i'm trying to do my best 

when we walk out 

a sentence come out from my mum

" your teacher look didn't hav any experience at all " 

haha  =)  i feel my mum so clever suddenly

i tell my mum her teaching method 

i think u all noe tat 

at last , " what a good teacher " i want to say agn =)

[o^@^o] xinhui [o^@^o]

2011 / 06 / 23 ( 三 )

consciousness !!

 our class have been scolded 

by cikgu khuzima today in her " precious " bm lesson

what is the reason make her so angry ?? 

period coming ?? no...

it is because around half of us 

didn't bring our text book -- harga remaja for few days

well ~ i'm still keep playing my " sudoku " in her lesson

but i have no choice 

 40++ marks shows on my bm exam sheet everytime

although i have already try to do my best

i really hate bahasa malaysia so so so much !!!

thus ,  i have  a " big " consciousness today

i decide to stop taking spm and tuition classes

from july 2011

i think i will get a " red river " on the spm result paper 

if i still firm to take the exam

in the conclusion , i determine stop taking spm exam

happy hour -- kfc time

wednesday !! 2:20pm ~ 5:00pm -- happy hour

this is my cuisen today -- kfc toasted pocketful 

ermmmmmm ...  yummy yummy !!

having yummy pocketful with 

dear khai ying , shin yee , zhi qiing ,

si yin and khai bin ^^

haha ... khai ying and i decided to have yummy mcd

next lovely wednesday <3<3<3

my " weight loss program " have been break into pieces

 because of the yummy pizzahut , kfc , mcd & domino's 

=(

but it's really a good time 

let us have communication with each other 

 i'll treasure all the time that we get together 

=)

[o^@^o] xinhui [o^@^o]